I have a beautiful butterfly bush which my granddaughter picked out at Homedepot 6 years ago. Every year it grows bigger than the last year. It attracts butterflies, bees and hummingbirds. I just love to sit out in the front patio with a camera and watch for the flutters. The last few days have been active for a pair of butterflies. One is yellow, the other is orange. They tease my camera. Today I was able to capture so many different shots of the yellow butterfly. The orange one was playing shy….


Through inheritance I was given a genetic curse, Hereditary Hemochromatosis. It's also known as iron overload. A normal body can use then discard any excess dietary iron. My body thinks it doesn't have enough iron, so if grabs and stores every single little molecule of iron. Where does the iron go? Anywhere, everywhere it can…..joints, the synovial fluid which surrounds the joints are an excellent beginning storage spot. I was originally diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis because my hands, thumbs especially were swollen, almost frozen in place. Upon further testing, an MRI, Hemochromatosis was discovered hiding in the synovial fluid. It was the telltale sign. The little hook shaped pieces of iron causing inflammation in the fluid which makes a joint mobile.
When my genetic test came back positive for 2 copies (homozygous) of H63d genes. I underwent a liver biopsy. That also showed the H63d genes. It also showed I had a pretty decent amount of iron stored in my liver… several weeks later I began weekly therapeutic phlebotomies. The difference between therapeutic and not therapeutic phlebotomies is a matter of how often blood can be drawn. Red Cross guidelines state a
I chose a hospital with a blood lab who has a variance allowing the blood taken from donors with Hemochromatosis to be placed in the general donor pool. Most blood recipients need that extra iron!


Tomorrow is my 150 phlebotomy!! Party? 🎯💋⛑🍾🥂🎊🎉💈‼️
Since 2009 I have given 150 pints of love.

Go ahead call your local Red Cross and make an appointment to donate a pint of blood! It only takes an hour or less. The only pain you might feel is of the needle stick. It's really is just a tiny little pinch!! Don't look!! After it's done you will get a drink and a snack. If you are lucky enough to use the donor center I visit, Anna Jaques Hospital in Newburyport, Massachusetts, you will get a home made cookie, cake or something yummy.

My favorite lab is super kind and treats their donors with lots of love!

This is a link to the REDCROSS website with information about donating blood.

WHO guidelines…a little more formal instructions in the medical field.


Today in History
Today is Tuesday, Aug. 8, the 220th day of 2017. There are 145 days left in the year.
Today’s Highlight in History:
On August 8, 1974, President Richard Nixon, facing damaging new revelations in the Watergate scandal, announced he would resign the following day.
On this date:
In 1815, Napoleon Bonaparte set sail for St. Helena to spend the remainder of his days in exile.
In 1911, President William Howard Taft signed a measure raising the number of U.S. representatives from 391 to 433, effective with the next Congress, with a proviso to add two more when New Mexico and Arizona became states.
In 1937, during the Second Sino-Japanese War, Japan completed its occupation of Beijing.
In 1942, during World War II, six Nazi saboteurs who were captured after landing in the U.S. were executed in Washington, D.C.; two others who cooperated with authorities were spared.
In 1945, President Harry S. Truman signed the U.S. instrument of ratification for the United Nations Charter. The Soviet Union declared war against Japan during World War II.
In 1953, the United States and South Korea initialed a mutual security pact.
In 1963, Britain’s “Great Train Robbery” took place as thieves made off with 2.6 million pounds in banknotes.
In 1968, the Republican national convention in Miami Beach nominated Richard Nixon for president on the first ballot.
In 1973, Vice President Spiro T. Agnew branded as “damned lies” reports he had taken kickbacks from government contracts in Maryland, and vowed not to resign — which he ended up doing.
In 1992, AIDS activist Alison Gertz died in Westhampton Beach, Long Island, New York, at age 26.
In 1994, Israel and Jordan opened the first road link between the two once-warring countries.
In 2009, Sonia Sotomayor was sworn in as the U.S. Supreme Court’s first Hispanic and third female justice.
Ten years ago: Space shuttle Endeavour roared into orbit with teacher-astronaut Barbara Morgan on board. Screenwriter-director Mel Shavelson died in Studio City, California, at age 90.
Five years ago: Egyptian President Mohammed Morsi fired his intelligence chief for failing to act on an Israeli warning of an imminent attack days before militants stormed a border post in the Sinai Peninsula and killed 16 soldiers. Misty May-Treanor and Kerri Walsh Jennings of the United States became the first three-time gold medalists in Olympic beach volleyball history, beating Jennifer Kessy and April Ross 21-16, 21-16 in the all-American final.
One year ago: A fire and power outage at a Delta Air Lines data center in Atlanta resulted in the cancellation of 2,300 flights over a four-day period. Japan’s 82-year-old emperor, Akihito, expressed concern about fulfilling his duties in a public address that was remarkable for its rarity and its suggestion that he would like to abdicate. At the Rio Olympics, Ryan Murphy gave the Americans their sixth straight gold medal in the men’s 100-meter backstroke, winning with a time of 51.97 seconds; Lilly King of the United States has won gold in the women’s 100-meter breaststroke in 1 minute, 4.93 seconds.
Today’s Birthdays: Actor Richard Anderson is 91. Actress Nita Talbot is 87. Singer Mel Tillis is 85. Actor Dustin Hoffman is 80. Actress Connie Stevens is 79. Country singer Phil Balsley (The Statler Brothers) is 78. Actor Larry Wilcox is 70. Actor Keith Carradine is 68. Movie director Martin Brest is 66. Radio-TV personality Robin Quivers is 65. Percussionist Anton Fig is 64. Actor Donny Most is 64. Rock musician Dennis Drew (10,000 Maniacs) is 60. TV personality Deborah Norville is 59. Actor-singer Harry Crosby is 59. Rock musician The Edge (U2) is 56. Rock musician Rikki Rockett (Poison) is 56. Rapper Kool Moe Dee is 55. Rock musician Ralph Rieckermann is 55. Middle distance runner Suzy Favor Hamilton is 49. Rock singer Scott Stapp is 44. Country singer Mark Wills is 44. Actor Kohl Sudduth is 43. Rock musician Tom Linton (Jimmy Eat World) is 42. Singer JC Chasez (‘N Sync) is 41. Actress Tawny Cypress is 41. Rhythm-and-blues singer Drew Lachey (lah-SHAY’) (98 Degrees) is 41. Rhythm-and-blues singer Marsha Ambrosius is 40. Actress Lindsay Sloane is 40. Actress Countess Vaughn is 39. Actor Michael Urie is 37. Tennis player Roger Federer is 36. Actress Meagan Good is 36. Actress Jackie Cruz (TV: “Orange is the New Black”) is 33. Britain’s Princess Beatrice of York is 29. Actor Ken Baumann is 28. Pop singer Shawn Mendes is 19. Actress Bebe Wood (TV: “The Real O’Neals”) is 16.
Thought for Today: “The time to relax is when you don’t have time for it.” — Sydney J. Harris, American journalist (1917-1986).


Keep checking I will write/right this one eventually. Here is what I know. There are many more survivors in the world shamed into silence over something which can never be undone. You are not alone, ever. Pick up your sword by writing it down for the world to see.

Alienated family. By definition alienation is

a withdrawing or separation of a person or a person's affections from an object or position of former attachment : estrangement.

If I could return to the time when my children were younger and realize this is exactly what was happening with my daughter. It began when she was young. I can't even place a time frame. It was complete the day she called my father to tattle on me for punishing her. The issue as to why she was punished I don't even recall the exact reasons other than she was sent to her room for a period of time as a time out. This was how I punished my children when they misbehaved. By chance the cordless phone was in her room. She called my father to report I had sent her to her room. I can place the location; Fountain Street. I can also place her age at 7-9 years. (Not certain) Her call resulted in my father asking to speak with me. He berated me for punishing my own child. It was at that moment I now understand the alienation of my daughters affect had already been taken from me. it was complete.
I wonder why my father did not berate my sisters for their own misguided child rearing. (We have a convicted felon selling drugs.) No. Both my father and my mother permanently estranged my daughter from my affections. At the age of 13 she went to live in my parents home.
She ran away. She did return for a short time in which I placed her into inpatient psychiatric care on 2 different occasions. The first being she was suicidal. The second because of self harm, biting her own arm and drawing blood. While inpatient her therapist advised I discontinue any relationship between my parents and my daughter because they had formed a disproportionate relationship with her. They were not the authoritative parental figures but more of a blind cult leadership. In other words they did not desire to replace me as a parent they wanted to destroy me by destroying my child.
There was discussion of why this was happening. At the time I did not understand in full what was being asked of me. There was one question. It was not of my being a good parent or a bad parent. It was what happened at an earlier time which would want your parents to destroy you? If they could not destroy me they would destroy my child and allow me to watch helplessly. I already knew the answer to this. I was sexually abused by a sibling. My mother witnessed it yet she did not stop it. She blamed me. In her mind she blamed her me, her nine year old daughter not her pubescent other child. The answer was as simple as that. The abuse continued throughout my entire adult life.
Shortly after I attempted to gain a "CHINS" (Child in need of services) court order which I hoped would stop my parents from interfering with my parental authority relationship with my daughter. Even as she lived with my and my new husband she continued to threaten to return to my parents home to live. My attempts to have a rational adult conversation with my mother were futile.

"Mom please stop allowing her to return. This is only causing psychological damage to her. If you and Dad would like to meet with her therapist she (therapist) will explain the reasons why this is only hurting her in the long term."

If I had followed through with the Department of Social Services and gained the CHINS order it would have given custody of my daughter to the state of Massachusetts social services department. They would grant me physical custody but dictate a list of provisions which I had to follow. I was in agreement because I realized this may be the only way to save my daughter from further alienation. It was after one question what's asked of me; " What will you do if your child decides to run away?" She had a history of running away to her friends homes. I thought, what if she should go to an unknown place, a friend I was not aware of?
At this point in time my daughter had realized if she lied and played a victim she was credible. She had the abused character of "A Child Called It" as her favorite book and her persona.
(In this book a now adult recalls memories of his childhood in which he was an abused child.)
The judge during the hearing denied my request for the CHINS order. He deferred it for review of her social worker. The social worker explained once placed in the custody of Social Services I could loose physical custody if there was interference. In other words if My daughter ran away again she would be placed in a foster home or a psychiatric ward.
I realized I had already lost my child. The CHINS order would only place her further away from me and into harms way. She continued to use my parents home as a weapon against me. She left my home after calling my mother to take her away. This was a pivotal moment for my decision. If I had called her social worker to return her to my home by requesting the State take custody through the court order I could have forced her back. I decided to just let her go.
Through therapy I understood the reasons behind my parents action. They wanted to punish me into submission of silence. I chose to not allow them to use my daughter as a weapon by letting go.
It was and still is the hardest decision I have ever made. Yet I understood what I was doing. Unfortunately it was the worst of all outcomes. My daughter has Borderline personality disorder. She does not live by society's rules. She creates drama and attention seeking events for herself and her 6 children.
I walked away. That circus has one less viewer in the audience.
If you ask if I have children? My answer is always no, I do not have any children.
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Home -things which make you smile?

Nasty disgusting hospital… taking a bath in the hottest of water.

Having my borrowed pup never leave my side?

Finally watching my flowers grow above the weeds because i ruled with the hoe…..
And that cat named Phred is still pulling off acting jobs to support my fancy?